Tomorrow

Please Pray for me tomorrow! I have to be at UT at 8:30 and surgery should begin at 10:30pm. I'm nervous about what they will find but I trust that God's will will be accomplished. I Praise Him for whatever comes tomorrow. Thank You God for your hand in my life! Thank You for the child/children that I know You are sending my way.

Please Remember...

Please remember to keep me in Prayer on Friday. I'm a little nervous about what will be found but I am definitely ready to know! Please Pray for me. I'll update you all as soon as I am back to myself. Thanks in advance and God bless!!!

Ps. Pray for my friend Deanna who had insemination today!

Laproscopy This Friday!

So let me tell u from multiple experiences.... God is soo good all the time even when we feel as though He isn't hearing us. God took my situation yesterday and answered it perfectly. The insurance lady at the doctor called me back and said that they had scheduled my surgery for this Friday ( perfect because I have a 4 day weekend this weekend) and that it was covered... not all of it but the majority! How awesome! I couldn't have set it all up this way if I had have tried! God is soo good to me. He blesses me even when I'm not blessing Him. I really feel that the surgery will be a better fit based on the fact that nothing is working thus far and the fact that my mom had bad endometriosis. Hopefully, PRAYERFULLY they will find simple things to fix and then I'll get pregnant! Please keep Praying! Thanks for lifting me up!

Urgent Prayers

I come to you today with an urgent Prayer request. Please Pray for me because I found out that none of my HSG test will be covered by insurance. I am ok with that. It will cost about $1200 to $2,000 dollars out of pocket and I will have to pay $1300 up front Tuesday morning. But... the more I have thought about it... the more I wonder if I should just go ahead and do laproscopy because then they would be checking for endometriosis along with doing my tubes at the same time. So I called back to the doctor and told the receptionist that and she said that it might not be covered under insurance either. I told her that one of my best friend's who comes to them just had it done and we have the same insurance through the school and it covered the majority of hers. She said that she would talk to my doctor about it. She said the insurance may wonder why they just called to see if HSG was going to be covered and then turned around and decided to do laproscopy. So she is talking to my doctor about it and suppose to call me tomorrow.

I'm stressed because....

1. I don't want to make my doctor think that I am trying to tell her what to do.
2. I don't want to want to pay out this much money and then have to turn around and have surgery possibly and pay out a bunch more.
3. I just want to know what's wrong with me !!!
4. I JUST WANT TO HAVE A BABY!

God is good. He will see me through this. I just need your Prayers to help! Pray so hard for me tomorrow. Pray that I make the right decisions. Pray that I can have this surgery if possible and that it will be covered by my insurance. Pray that it will work and whatever is wrong can be fixed and that this will eventually come to an end for me. Pray for my mental well being.

A Day of Confusion......A Day of God's Grace

Today has been the most confusing day. I got up this morning in shock that I still had not started my period. I got ready and went to the hospital to have my pregnancy test. At around 11am I went to the bathroom and saw red. I assumed I had started and walked back to my classroom to get a tampon. I was kind of confused though because it was just a small amount of blood and I usually start full force. An hour later when I went back to check, there was just a small amount and so I didn't put another in. I never bled anymore.

So I called the doctor and they hadn't received the results. I called the hospital and the refaxed them and my Dr's office finally got them. However, they couldn't tell me anything because the doctor had to see them first and she was in surgery until 2 or 3 pm. So...... I played the waiting game all day... waiting on a period to start full force or a phone call with an answer.

At around 2pm, the nurse called and said that it was negative. I asked if we could do the HSG (dye testing) this month and she said she would find out. She asked when my period should end and I told her I wasn't sure because I really hadn't even started. She said to give her an estimate and so I told her like Friday or Saturday. My periods never last longer than 2-3 days. She said that it may be a problem because they didn't do those tests on Saturday and I needed to do it after I had stopped bleeding. She also said that I wouldn't be able to try after having that test this month.

So those of you who know me well know that I freak out easily.... well I started freaking out. I was thinking that if they couldn't do that test this month that basically I would end up missing the next 2 months of trying. I was so upset. But before I could worry too much she called back and told me to call Monday and let them know if I had stopped bleeding and that if I had that they would schedule me for Tuesday morning.

About 30 minutes later my doctor called back and repeated that information and told me that I could definitely try this month. She actually said it would increase my chances to try after having this done. So, I go back to the Femara 7.5 days 3-10 this month (the same as last time). They are also checking with my insurance to see if the test will be covered. PLEASE... Pray that it is. I am so broke from driving back and forth to the doctor (2 hours) and meds and this IUI. What am I saying? Most of you are going through it, too... so you get it!

Specific Prayer requests....

1. Pray for Baby Brittain-Goodlett to be in the works even now!
2. Pray that my test will be covered.
3. Pray that (I know this sounds insane) they find something minor that they can fix then and there that is causing this.
4. Pray that it all works!
5. Pray for my mental well being!

In light of this lovely negative.... God has continued to be so good to me. And I could not be this joyful without Him. Would I have loved to have been pregnant? Oh certainly! But He continues to amaze me because who would think that I could be this OK with the news I received yet again this month. That's the grace and the peace of my precious Savior! I Praise Him for this trial because it is drawing me closer to Him! I Praise Him for His love because without it I would be a mess. I Praise Him for this wonderful relationship that we share because without Him, I Am NOTHING! Thank you Abba Father.... Daddy, Daddy! Thank You for hearing me cry out to You! Thank You for giving me this amazing peace in my soul. Thank You for going before me today and helping me to deal with all that was thrown at me. I love You! And thanks to my blogger friends for checking on me all day .......... you guys mean the world to me.

Nothing ....

So, last night I was pretty positive I was going to start my period by morning. I am still waiting. I haven't been cramping much today anymore. If I do not start by morning, I will be heading out to take a blood test. This will be the first blood test that I've actually had because so far I have always started before it is time for the test. Please Pray really hard for me. I feel like I am so close that I can taste it but I know that God knows what is best. I trust Him no matter what tonight or tomorrow might bring. I know He has a precious child (children) waiting for me... just me. My very own children! No one else's kids... my very own! That's just an amazing thought to me. Please Pray for Baby Brittain-Goodlett's existence to be made known soon.

Please Pray For Me

Please Pray for me guys. I feel so horrible tonight. I am cramping, my knees are aching (they always do this when I am getting ready to start my period) and my sinuses are killing me (actually bleeding). I'm so weary and I need to be lifted up. Please just Pray.

Progesterone Levels For October

My progesterone level was 31 and my doctor said that it was a really good level. I'm glad though I wonder if that means I didn't release all my eggs. Anyone know? Anyway, I am asking for your continued Prayer for the next few days. I have been holding tight to my Faith this past week and I'm still trying my best. Please Pray for me really diligently from now until Wed. Pray that if it is God's will I will not start my period as I usually do before I get the chance to take my pregnancy test. Please Pray that I'll get positive results if God will allow it. And please Pray that if God does not desire for us to get pregnant this month that He will just carry me through the hurt and disappointment as well as through planning and dealing with the next steps. Thanks guys! I love each of you!

Faith Undies

I know this will sound goofy but.....as mentioned before I am trying to be positive and have total Faith and Trust in my Savior with this situation. So........ I have 2 pairs of underwear that have pregnancy sayings on them. They aren't for pregnant women that are very far along, just cutesy ones for I guess when you first find out. Anyway, I found them really cheap about a year or so ago and I bought them. So, I've been waiting to wear them forever. I was getting ready yesterday and decided that I was going to wear a pair to continue to have Faith. I know that sounds so funny but I did. I wore the pair that had "Mommy-To-Be" on them. And it was like my little statement of Faith to God that I believe He has blessed us with a child this month if it has been in His will. So funny, yet so positive for me. Those were off limits but I felt the need to wear them because with God this can be possible and I need to make sure that my entire being knows that as much as my heart does!

Ps. Keep Praying for me!

A Phone Call

So... I got a phone call tonight from my best friend in high school. We hadn't talked in so long other than a few texts here and there. She called and asked how I was and when I asked how she was she replied, "I'm Pregnant." I was in shock and she was, too. But I can honestly say that I was happy for her.

I am trying to have as much FAITH as possible this month. I told God this morning that I was not going to doubt or let myself talk as though it couldn't be this month. Now, I'm not going to go around talking to everyone about it but I am going to quietly encourage myself and tell myself that this is the month because I know God is faithful and that it just really is my month if that's what His will has in store. Just keep me in your Prayers. Also, I thought it would be neat to hear from you. Here's a question that I'm sure we've all analyzed a time or two (or 100)...

question... what was your first symptom and when did it start?

Love, Prayers, and Baby Dust to each of you!

Just Waiting....

Nothing new to report. Just waiting. I did hear from an old friend that I went to high school with. She told me that she had an IUI and had 4 follicles. She, too, had PCOS. She conceived that cycle and was pregnant with twins. She lost one of them at 9 weeks. This gave me hope. Her situation sounds a lot like mine and she got pregnant! It worked for her and now she has a precious, and adorable I might add, little boy to care for. Please keep Praying. God is good and He knows exactly when to entrust me with this precious little soul. I Praise Him for the blessing that is already a reality in His will. I Pray and have faith that this is the month!

Today's IUI

To say that today's IUI was an adventure would be an understatement! I got up at 4:30am this morning and left at 5:15. I had spent some time yesterday cleaning my car up and walked out to a majorly rainy morning. Yuck! So, I drove to Corbin and got on exit 25 which is the closer exit. I wasn't paying attention because my mind was racing and I got on going the wrong direction. So I drove to exit 29 and exited off, disappointed that I had wasted time. While I was there, I picked up some breakfast for my hubby and headed again again.

Driving was horrible this morning. There were tons of big trucks on the road. There was also tons of rain, darkness, and fog. I was so tense trying to get there. I did make it at about 7:20. We didn't have to drop off the specimen until 8am so we rested for just a few minutes before we went to the office.

I was told to either wait in the office or come back in an hour after the sperm was processed. So we left and just drove around for a few minutes. My husband is really into cars so he wanted to see if there were any dealerships nearby. We finally drove back and I walked in about 5 minutes early.

I sat down and a few minutes later the nurse came to get me. We walked into the room and she asked if I had brought my medicine with me. I just looked at her with a blank look. I kept thinking, was I suppose to have brought something? Did I forget? I asked her which medication she was talking about and she said the HCG shot. I again was dumbfounded and I told her that I had taken it on Monday evening. She then looked at me confused. I told her that I was there for an IUI. She looked shocked and said "OOOH. I didn't realize that!" She asked if I had dropped off the specimen and I told her yes and she left to check on it.

Well, if you know me you know that I started freaking out. What if it was lost? What if they had left it sitting on the counter and forgotten about it? What if I was going to lose these 4 follicles this month? I just kept Praying for God's hand to be upon me and for this situation to be resolved.

She came back and told me that it would be just a minute. Then another lady that works there (not sure of her title) came in and asked if I was Ms. Goodlett. I replied that I was and she said that it would be just a little bit. So I was escorted back out to the waiting room and they both kept apologizing. I wasn't mad at them. I was just worried that something would be messed up with the specimen. I sat there for about an hour and I realized that they were obviously having to process it while I was sitting there. I was then called back and we got started.

When my doctor came in I asked her if it mattered that it was late getting processed. She told me no that everything was fine and that my husband's count was 28 million. She said that everything looked good on both his end and mine. She said this was a really good shot at it. The nurse later told me that they had messed up because of a miscommunication. I asked where it was and she said in the warmer. That made me feel better. At least it wasn't sitting out in that cold office.

My cervix didn't want to cooperate so the doctor had to pull it down a bit. That was a little uncomfortable, but nothing unbearable. Just felt pressure and some cramping afterwards but nothing major. I laid there for about 15-20 minutes and then I was free to go.

I was still a little worried in the car on the way home so I laid my seat back and Prayed myself to sleep. Tonight we are suppose to try once more just for backup.

Please God, send a precious little soul to me this month. Please let it fit perfectly into your plan for my life. Please bless each of those eggs and each of those sperm and let them find each other. Lord, you know the ends and outs of each of them. Please just let this work this time. Please let me be teetering on the edge at the end of the tunnel. Please let the rays of light be leaning my way. I promise to give you all the praise and glory for this blessing and Lord, no matter what, thank You for being with me. I love you Father.

Ps. Please keep Praying for my friend's sister-in-law as she goes through a miscarriage and D&C on Thursday.

Also, keep Praying for Baby Sheldon to be created just as you are Praying for Baby Brittain-Goodlett to be!

I'm A Copy Cat.... Pray For Baby Brittain-Goodlett tomorrow!

I found this on my infertility blogger friend Elaine's blog. She, too, is going through IUI today and tomorrow. If we both get pregnant in this cycle, we will be due at exactly the same time! How cool is that? Anyway, she is asking for Prayers for her during these procedures. I am doing the same as always, but I am going to request that you let me know when you will be Praying. Now I am going to ask for days of Prayer because I would like to be asked to be bathed in Prayer during possible implantation as well. I often wonder if I have Endometriosis, though the doctor has not mentioned this yet. Sometimes, Endometriosis causes an embryo to not implant. Please keep me in Prayer and let me know when you are Praying. And obviously Pray any other time you think of me. I agree with Elaine, your comments will be "concrete evidence" of all the Prayers going up to God on our behalf. According to research, implantation can take place from 6-10 days after you ovulate. So, I am listing the next 11 (one extra hehe) days for you to Pray. Please let me know which day you will be Praying whole heartedly and also please everyone Pray for my IUI in the morning. Pray that I will be able to conceive a precious little miracle from God.


Prayers for Conception (if it be God's Will):
*** Leave me a comment letting me know when you will Pray for Baby Brittain-Goodlett to be
created by God's precious hands on October 8, 2008.
*** I'll list you by name in the next few days as to which day you are Praying.
*** When Baby Brittain-Goodlett is old enough to understand this, I will be able to show him/her just how many folks Prayed for his/her existence!

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God Bless you for Praying for my heart's desire!

Cycle 3 on Femara adding an IUI

So....... I went to my doctor's apt. yesterday. She told me that I have not 1, not 2, not 3, but 4 eggs large enough to ovulate. I took my shot last night and I go at 8am tomorrow for an IUI. She said that this will double my chances this month. PLEASE... Pray that this works. I am so hoping that it will. I know that it is God's will for me to be blessed with a child, I just feel it. And I have Prayed that if He could see that this month would work without an IUI that He would let me have only 1 good egg to be fertilized. Now, I'm not hedging God in by saying that if I'm not pregnant this month I will be upset because He didn't answer me correctly. Not by any means! I just feel like this could possibly be the month. And if it isn't, I believe my doctor will do more tests because to me that would mean that there is more than just the PCOS. Click over to my personal blog for another surprise I encountered yesterday! Love, Prayers, and Baby Dust to you all!

Ps. Please Pray for my friend Kim's sister-in-law. She has been trying to have a child for years and has miscarried previously. She got pregnant alongside Kim and they were due the same month. She was told yesterday, after going to the doctor for bleeding, that she would probably miscarry in the next few days. Please lift her up to the Lord.

The Tunnel

On Sunday, Michael and I were driving back from TN. I was coming back through the Cumberland Gap Tunnel and Mike was dosing off in the passengers seat. As I drove through, like I have a million times before, I looked back through my rear view mirror. I could see the light at the beginning of the tunnel disappearing as I approached the end. I was reminded that life's battles are like tunnels. We enter into a tunnel when we begin a battle and we are sometimes in tunnels that are so long, such as infertility, that we can't often see the light at the end. But this time, when I looked back, I could no longer see the light from the entrance but I could look forward and see the light at the end. I felt like God was speaking to me and saying, "Not much longer my child. Just hold on."

I feel like my infertility struggle is nearing an end. I don't know if it will be another couple of weeks, months, or years but I feel as though it will be over sooner rather than later. And I thank God for the blessing I know is on its way even now. I also thank God for the tunnels in my life because without them, I would possibly forget how blessed I am. Lastly, I thank God that I can look back and even though it is dark and the entrance light is dimmed, I can still remember where I started from.

WAITING!!!

I go to the doctor at 10am tomorrow morning. Keep me in your Prayers! Love and God's Blessings to you all!!!