And God remembered Alesha .... yet again ....

PRAISE GOD FOR HIS PRECIOUS MIRACLES! 

Genesis 30:22  And God remembered Alesha, and God hearkened to her, and opened her womb..... A SECOND TIME!

Please Pray for our newest journey and for the health of our newest addition!

20 weeks 3 day Apt. Update + Back 2 Work & New House

<sup>1 Peter 5: 6-8

6</sup>Humble yourselves therefore under the mighty hand of God, that he may exalt you in due time:

⁷Casting all your care upon him; for he careth for you.

⁸Be sober, be vigilant; because your adversary the devil, as a roaring lion, walketh about, seeking whom he may devour:

What awesome verses in the midst of our infertility and pregnancy woes! So true that God has His perfect time and He waits for that perfect time because He cares for us! So true also that satan is always waiting in the wings to rip us apart. We need to make sure we keep our eyes on our Savior for our strength and our help against this foe.

So on Wednesday I went back to my OB for my 20.5 week apt. Things were looking a lot better for Baby Zoey. The membrane sac was apparently attached because the ultrasound tech couldn't see any place in the ultrasound that showed that it was unattached. There was still a small amount of blood but not enough to bother anything. The ARNP said that it may just be reabsorbing into my body. My cervix was about 3.4 cm. That was good. Shorter than last time but I read that it can go back and forth a bit and that anything above 3 is good. I was taken off modified bed rest and given the OK to head back to work. Here are the pictures that the tech printed after I reminded her. The first shows that Zoey is a girl (though it isn't as clear as the other views of this we have seen in previous weeks) and the second shows Zoey laying on her side.


My mom and I also spoke with the doctors about the Swine flu pandemic. They were concerned as well. They explained the precautions to take because I work in a school and that makes it easier for me to be exposed. My ARNP is actually putting off getting pregnant now until the first of the year so that she can take the H1N1 vaccine without having to be in her first trimester. I think this is all a bigger deal than most folks think. I keep hearing that it is all hype but I'm pretty sure that it's bigger than what most people think.

They also discussed me being exposed to Fifth's disease. I had heard of this before because my niece had it last year. Kindergartners pass it left and right (also other small kids at daycare, etc.). They ran a test on me to see if I had had it as a child. If so, I would be ok but if not I have to be aware of that also because it can cause problems for the baby. I asked if I would have known and she told me that probably not because a lot of times it goes unnoticed because sometimes there aren't any symptoms.

So, we had a good visit. I am shaken up with the Swine flu and Fifth's disease discussions but I am just Praying that God will keep me and my baby safe. Please join me in Prayer for the same thing.

I did go back to work on Thursday and I am adjusting ok. My feet and legs are swelling some from being up all day and I have to get use to doing that again. But all in all things are going good. I am teaching 4th, 5th, and Kindergarten music, a 3rd grade reading, and various grade levels for a tutoring class (it changes daily).

In other news... I have waited to share this until it's closer but WE ARE BUYING OUR FIRST HOUSE! We have gotten to the point before where we agreed on an offer so this time when we did I was afraid to mention it because it seems like something always falls through. Well this time, we have had an accepted offer on the same house that we were buying a couple of months ago but with a better price this time and with better loan options. It was a blessing that it didn't work out the first time. We have had the home inspection, the survey on the land (1.4 acre lot) and now we are awaiting the FHA appraisal. I have been packing (don't worry ... just sitting and sorting with my momma's help, while my brother and hubby lift boxes and things). We have a whole lot finished. We worked the Friday that we found out and the following Tuesday, Wednesday, and Thursday. We took a break on my birthday (Aug. 21) and started again this past Monday and Tuesday. A lot was accomplished in 6 days.... but it was in Creation time with God, too wasn't it? haha

Just continue to bathe us in your Prayers as we do the same for you! Much love to each of you!

Baby Pictures @ 14 Weeks & 3 days Taken July 15, 2009

Here are the baby pictures I promised almost 2 weeks ago. They've been hanging on my momma's fridge. I borrowed them today to scan them and put them on here for you guys! I'm sending them back her way next time I see her...haha Continue to Pray that the baby is doing well this Wed. at my appointment. I always get a bit nervous before I go... just keep us in your Prayers. A few of you have asked how I am doing and the answer is just fine. I am still on bed rest and I'll find out more at that appointment. I'll do whatever it takes though to keep my lil one safe... even if it means bed rest for awhile : )


This chapter of Psalms came to mind when I was getting ready to post these pictures... please read and enjoy!

PSALM 139

1 O lord, thou hast searched me, and known me.

2 Thou knowest my downsitting and mine uprising, thou understandest my thought afar off.

3 Thou compassest my path and my lying down, and art acquainted with all my ways.

4 For there is not a word in my tongue, but, lo, O LORD, thou knowest it altogether.

5 Thou hast beset me behind and before, and laid thine hand upon me.

6 Such knowledge is too wonderful for me; it is high, I cannot attain unto it.

7 Whither shall I go from thy spirit? or whither shall I flee from thy presence?

8 If I ascend up into heaven, thou art there: if I make my bed in hell, behold, thou art there.

9 If I take the wings of the morning, and dwell in the uttermost parts of the sea;

10 Even there shall thy hand lead me, and thy right hand shall hold me.

11 If I say, Surely the darkness shall cover me; even the night shall be light about me.

12 Yea, the darkness hideth not from thee; but the night shineth as the day: the darkness and the light are both alike to thee.

13 For thou hast possessed my reins: thou hast covered me in my mother's womb.

14 I will praise thee; for I am fearfully and wonderfully made: marvellous are thy works; and that my soul knoweth right well.

15 My substance was not hid from thee, when I was made in secret, and curiously wrought in the lowest parts of the earth.

16 Thine eyes did see my substance, yet being unperfect; and in thy book all my members were written, which in continuance were fashioned, when as yet there was none of them.

17 How precious also are thy thoughts unto me, O God! how great is the sum of them!

18 If I should count them, they are more in number than the sand: when I awake, I am still with thee.

19 Surely thou wilt slay the wicked, O God: depart from me therefore, ye bloody men.

20 For they speak against thee wickedly, and thine enemies take thy name in vain.

21 Do not I hate them, O LORD, that hate thee? and am not I grieved with those that rise up against thee?

22 I hate them with perfect hatred: I count them mine enemies.

23 Search me, O God, and know my heart: try me, and know my thoughts:

24 And see if there be any wicked way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting.

PRAISE GOD, GREAT THINGS HE HAS DONE!

Psalm 37 ... God's Reminders to Me

So ... last month in the shower Psalm 37:4 came to my heart. I was disheartened and hurt and God spoke to me through that verse. Today during Prayer time I was flipping through my Bible and landed on Psalm 37. As I started reading I ran into that verse. It brought tears to my eyes to see what God was once again reminding me of. Tonight at our church my pastor opened up the service with ... Psalm 37. Once again, it brought tears to my eyes. How good God is and how awesome His promises are!

I know that no matter the outcome this weekend ... He has a big plan for my desires. I am not saying that if I get a negative result that I won't be upset and hurt... but deep down I'll always know that God has a perfect will and that He is keeping me right in the center of it and I'll be grateful for that opportunity!

(Side note: my progesterone was 72)

Please read this chapter:

Psalm 37 (King James Version)

Psalm 37

¹Fret not thyself because of evildoers, neither be thou envious against the workers of iniquity.

²For they shall soon be cut down like the grass, and wither as the green herb.

³Trust in the LORD, and do good; so shalt thou dwell in the land, and verily thou shalt be fed.

⁴Delight thyself also in the LORD: and he shall give thee the desires of thine heart.

⁵Commit thy way unto the LORD; trust also in him; and he shall bring it to pass.

⁶And he shall bring forth thy righteousness as the light, and thy judgment as the noonday.

⁷Rest in the LORD, and wait patiently for him: fret not thyself because of him who prospereth in his way, because of the man who bringeth wicked devices to pass.

⁸Cease from anger, and forsake wrath: fret not thyself in any wise to do evil.

⁹For evildoers shall be cut off: but those that wait upon the LORD, they shall inherit the earth.

¹⁰For yet a little while, and the wicked shall not be: yea, thou shalt diligently consider his place, and it shall not be.

¹¹But the meek shall inherit the earth; and shall delight themselves in the abundance of peace.

¹²The wicked plotteth against the just, and gnasheth upon him with his teeth.

¹³The LORD shall laugh at him: for he seeth that his day is coming.

¹⁴The wicked have drawn out the sword, and have bent their bow, to cast down the poor and needy, and to slay such as be of upright conversation.

¹⁵Their sword shall enter into their own heart, and their bows shall be broken.

¹⁶A little that a righteous man hath is better than the riches of many wicked.

¹⁷For the arms of the wicked shall be broken: but the LORD upholdeth the righteous.

¹⁸The LORD knoweth the days of the upright: and their inheritance shall be for ever.

¹⁹They shall not be ashamed in the evil time: and in the days of famine they shall be satisfied.

²⁰But the wicked shall perish, and the enemies of the LORD shall be as the fat of lambs: they shall consume; into smoke shall they consume away.

²¹The wicked borroweth, and payeth not again: but the righteous sheweth mercy, and giveth.

²²For such as be blessed of him shall inherit the earth; and they that be cursed of him shall be cut off.

²³The steps of a good man are ordered by the LORD: and he delighteth in his way.

²⁴Though he fall, he shall not be utterly cast down: for the LORD upholdeth him with his hand.

²⁵I have been young, and now am old; yet have I not seen the righteous forsaken, nor his seed begging bread.

²⁶He is ever merciful, and lendeth; and his seed is blessed.

²⁷Depart from evil, and do good; and dwell for evermore.

²⁸For the LORD loveth judgment, and forsaketh not his saints; they are preserved for ever: but the seed of the wicked shall be cut off.

²⁹The righteous shall inherit the land, and dwell therein for ever.

³⁰The mouth of the righteous speaketh wisdom, and his tongue talketh of judgment.

³¹The law of his God is in his heart; none of his steps shall slide.

³²The wicked watcheth the righteous, and seeketh to slay him.

³³The LORD will not leave him in his hand, nor condemn him when he is judged.

³⁴Wait on the LORD, and keep his way, and he shall exalt thee to inherit the land: when the wicked are cut off, thou shalt see it.

³⁵I have seen the wicked in great power, and spreading himself like a green bay tree.

³⁶Yet he passed away, and, lo, he was not: yea, I sought him, but he could not be found.

³⁷Mark the perfect man, and behold the upright: for the end of that man is peace.

³⁸But the transgressors shall be destroyed together: the end of the wicked shall be cut off.

³⁹But the salvation of the righteous is of the LORD: he is their strength in the time of trouble.

⁴⁰And the LORD shall help them, and deliver them: he shall deliver them from the wicked, and save them, because they trust in him.

8 DPO ... Just A Drop

Nothing really to report. I feel absolutely nothing. Should I? It's amazing to me that all the information I need and desire to know, yet am scared to death to hear .... is all found in one drop of blood. How awesome to think of a drop of blood that is way more important than mine ... the blood of Jesus! All that I needed forever .... found in just one drop of His shed blood for my sins! How awesome. And today I hold his verse dear because it is all I have in the midst of this 2ww.

Joshua 1:9

King James Version Have not I commanded thee? Be strong and of a good courage; be not afraid, neither be thou dismayed: for the LORD thy God is with thee whithersoever thou goest.

Please just continue to Pray for this precious miracle that happens to many but is only realized by a few ... I want to be in that few.

A Woman with Issue is Healed .... soon ... By Faith

I was reading my Bible this morning in Job. I've been reading there for awhile now. I came across a verse in Job 16 that referenced Isaiah 50:6. That verse dealt with Jesus being obedient unto death. I then flipped to the New Testament to read about the Crucifixion and resurrection of my blessed Savior keeping in mind that this is Easter weekend. On my way to those readings, I flipped past Luke 8: 41-48, A Woman with Issue Is Healed. I kept flipping but for some reason I was drawn to go back to these verses.

I have read this a thousand times but I felt, as I read it this time, that I could view it as my story. I felt as though it was my promise to come. No, I don't have an issue of blood full flowing for 12 years, but I have had an issue of infertility for 2. I think the faith in this story is what matters, not the condition.

Here is the story (when I say story, I mean true story) from 3 of the gospels.

Luke 8:41-48 (King James Version)

⁴¹And, behold, there came a man named Jairus, and he was a ruler of the synagogue: and he fell down at Jesus' feet, and besought him that he would come into his house:

⁴²For he had one only daughter, about twelve years of age, and she lay a dying. But as he went the people thronged him.

⁴³And a woman having an issue of blood twelve years, which had spent all her living upon physicians, neither could be healed of any,

⁴⁴Came behind him, and touched the border of his garment: and immediately her issue of blood stanched.

⁴⁵And Jesus said, Who touched me? When all denied, Peter and they that were with him said, Master, the multitude throng thee and press thee, and sayest thou, Who touched me?

⁴⁶And Jesus said, Somebody hath touched me: for I perceive that virtue is gone out of me.

⁴⁷And when the woman saw that she was not hid, she came trembling, and falling down before him, she declared unto him before all the people for what cause she had touched him, and how she was healed immediately.

⁴⁸And he said unto her, Daughter, be of good comfort: thy faith hath made thee whole; go in peace.

Matthew 9:18-22 (King James Version)

¹⁸While he spake these things unto them, behold, there came a certain ruler, and worshipped him, saying, My daughter is even now dead: but come and lay thy hand upon her, and she shall live.

¹⁹And Jesus arose, and followed him, and so did his disciples.

²⁰And, behold, a woman, which was diseased with an issue of blood twelve years, came behind him, and touched the hem of his garment:

²¹For she said within herself, If I may but touch his garment, I shall be whole.

²²But Jesus turned him about, and when he saw her, he said, Daughter, be of good comfort; thy faith hath made thee whole. And the woman was made whole from that hour.

Mark 5:21-34 (King James Version)

²¹And when Jesus was passed over again by ship unto the other side, much people gathered unto him: and he was nigh unto the sea.

²²And, behold, there cometh one of the rulers of the synagogue, Jairus by name; and when he saw him, he fell at his feet,

²³And besought him greatly, saying, My little daughter lieth at the point of death: I pray thee, come and lay thy hands on her, that she may be healed; and she shall live.

²⁴And Jesus went with him; and much people followed him, and thronged him.

²⁵And a certain woman, which had an issue of blood twelve years,

²⁶And had suffered many things of many physicians, and had spent all that she had, and was nothing bettered, but rather grew worse,

²⁷When she had heard of Jesus, came in the press behind, and touched his garment.

²⁸For she said, If I may touch but his clothes, I shall be whole.

²⁹And straightway the fountain of her blood was dried up; and she felt in her body that she was healed of that plague.

³⁰And Jesus, immediately knowing in himself that virtue had gone out of him, turned him about in the press, and said, Who touched my clothes?

³¹And his disciples said unto him, Thou seest the multitude thronging thee, and sayest thou, Who touched me?

³²And he looked round about to see her that had done this thing.

³³But the woman fearing and trembling, knowing what was done in her, came and fell down before him, and told him all the truth.

³⁴And he said unto her, Daughter, thy faith hath made thee whole; go in peace, and be whole of thy plague.

No, I don't have a disease I am dying with. But mentally it feels that way at times. It has been said that infertility patients sometimes have depression similar to those who have battled cancer. It is an ongoing thing that is so hard to find relief in aside from the peace from Jesus Christ.

Notice the things I have made bold in print. The woman had been sick for awhile and had spent everything she had on doctors. Sounds familiar to me, how about you? I love my doctor dearly but she is not the person who will make me conceive. She does all that she can do and then it is up to God.

If I may but touch his garment, I shall be whole.

If I may touch but his clothes, I shall be whole.

I feel this way myself. I feel as though I am diving through the crowd to just touch the hem of my Savior's garment.

And what happened when she did? She was healed instantly. The Bible doesn't say that she began feeling better, no it was straightway, right then. And she felt her complete healing right then!

Imagine this woman! How awesome would it be to take this leap of faith? To touch this Savior's garment with all faith that you would be healed and for it to actually happen! She must have lived the rest of her life with the words of her Savior echoing in her mind, "Daughter, be of good comfort: thy faith hath made thee whole; go in peace."

Is this worth suffering for? I think so. Twelve years she spent suffering and coping with this disease before this healing and yet it brought her to this wonderful experience with Jesus. I think my infertility is worth suffering for because it has brought me closer to my Savior. I think that His answer is awaiting me and that it will be a miraculous experience. I don't know how or when but I claim this promise.

I want to be found touching Jesus' hem. I want to hear Him say, "Daughter, be of good comfort: thy faith hath made thee whole; go in peace." And I want to do just that, to go in peace.

It is a scary thing to step out on faith. Yet, I believe in my situation, that's where God is leading me. Total and complete surrender of this situation to Him and His will. I have faith that I will hear His words and be blessed with a precious gift from Heaven in the form of 10 little fingers and 10 little toes.

I claim my faith statement from last month. I believe this will be the month. Most importantly, I believe that no matter what month it is, it WILL (not just can) happen, just in God's time.

Have a great Easter guys and remember the cost of our Salvation. Most importantly, remember that this same Jesus who died a horrible death and arose on the third day .... is the same Jesus who is or can carry you through this down pouring rain of infertility or whatever your struggle is.

Empty Arms, Broken Hearts Video

Isaiah 30:18 (King James Version)

¹⁸And therefore will the LORD wait, that he may be gracious unto you, and therefore will he be exalted, that he may have mercy upon you: for the LORD is a God of judgment: blessed are all they that wait for him.

I have had a really hard time today. I have felt soo horrible with some major sinus problems. I slept for 4 hours this evening and then started my period. I still feel pretty yucky and it's almost 12am. I am stressed because I have been thinking about how I am going to have to figure out work around traveling to Knoxville again. The thought just wears me out. I wish that I was "one of those folks" who could just do it and not worry but that's just not me. I feel like I am spread so thin and I can't seem to do it all appropriately. Please just Pray for me as I try to figure all this out. I am going to see if my ultrasound for cysts can be done locally but if it is going to be too much of a headache, I'm just going to head back to Knoxville.

I came across this video tonight and felt it appropriately described how I am feeling. I hope this helps some of you who are hurting as well and I hope this helps those of you who have never went through infertility. It sort of helps explain what we are all going through in a very calm way. The part that really describes me currently is the part where it talks about "sending regrets" for not attending baby functions: holiday stuff, baby showers, bday parties, etc.

Much love and Prayers to all of you!

1 Peter 5:6-7 .... and I Would Die For That

1 Peter 5:6-7

King James Version
Humble yourselves therefore under the mighty hand of God, that he may exalt you in due time: Casting all your care upon him; for he careth for you.

Father, I Pray that this will be my "due time."

No Cysts and Time Frame

There were no cysts! Praise God! The doctor told me that the only cysts that she would be concerned with would be those on the left and since there weren't any at all, we didn't have to worry about that. I am following the same game plan as last month. 2 amps of powder to 1 cc of fluid daily. I go back for another ultrasound next Wed to see if I have any good left sided eggs. PRAY!!! If that is the case, she will tell me to either continue to nourish them with shots for more growth or tell me that we are ready for an IUI if there are more than 2. She did say that since my progesterone was so low this past month she is going to put me on progesterone shots after insemination (God willing we get that far with this cycle!) After I get pregnant, I will switch over to the suppositories.

I asked her about her time frame for me because I have been worried that she may want me to go to IVF soon. IVF is a wonderful thing but it is just something that I do not want to do unless I have to based on various reasons, one of which being the price $10,000. If God leads me to it, I will follow through just as my dear friend Elaine is doing right now. It truly is a blessed option but I really want to see if this can happen without it.

Anyway, her time frame is 1 year from surgery. You have no idea how much pressure that took off my shoulders because I have been worried that it would be at the 6 month mark which will be this May. I still Pray that God will send a child by the 6 month mark because your chances are increased but I trust Him and His will. He has the perfect time! Praise His precious name!

Daily meditating on my promise from God via my blessed earthly father....

Genesis 30:22: "And God remembered Alesha, and God hearkened to her, and opened her womb."

My Promise ... Thanks Dad!

My dad is such a good man. Actually, my parents are 2 of the greatest people that I will ever know. They have always taught me to do God's work and to serve Him... and for that I'll always be grateful. They see how badly I am hurting inside and they do everything they can to try to make me smile. My mom mentioned that my dad was Praying early one morning and that God brought the promise that He had given Rachel to his mind. That promise is found in Genesis 30:22:

"And God remembered Rachel, and God hearkened to her, and opened her womb."

My dad told my mom that he has been Praying that promise for me.

"And God remembered Alesha, and God hearkened to her, and opened her womb."

That is so beautiful to me. My dad truly means this Prayer and I really believe that God will honor it. How beautiful it looks to see "And God remembered Alesha..." because so many times satan whispers in my ear, that God has forgotten all about me and my situation. I know that isn't true but satan is definitely good at his job. He's good at making you feel as though the world is lost and everything is hopeless. But he isn't the victor and that's the awesome news.

I praise God for His remembrance of me and my Prayers. I praise God for what He is doing right now behind the scenes to teach me and to mold me. I ask Him to help me do a better job of walking through this valley without "murmurings and disputings" (Philippians 2:12).

Here's a couple of songs that are really helping me think about my Savior and my situation.

NOTICE THE PICTURE OF MARY SITTING AT JESUS' FEET. I YEARN TO DO THIS EVEN MORE!















OH HOW I LOVE THIS SONG..... JESUS BRING THE RAIN IF IT MEANS I CAN GROW IN MY PRAISE TOWARDS YOU!




Please Continue To Keep Me and Others Who Are Struggling With Infertility In Your Prayers!

Ps. My Aunt has went through her first chemo treatment and will undergo the next one on Tuesday. Hopefully, I will get to take her to it. They got her actual test results back and reclassified it as Stage 1 B. So that's better than Stage 2. My mother-in-law did wonderfully in her surgery today and the doctor was pretty confident that it wasn't a cancerous polyp. Praise God! How wonderful my Savior, and I Pray YOUR Savior, is!

Sharing some old posts from Shine 4 Jesus last Christmas with you Part 2 : God Is In The Impossible Situations

Luke 2: 5-80
5 ¶ There was in the days of Herod, the king of Judaea, a certain priest named Zacharias, of the course of Abia: and his wife was of the daughters of Aaron, and her name was Elisabeth. They came from a good background!
6 And they were both righteous before God, walking in all the commandments and ordinances of the Lord blameless.
7 And they had no child, because that Elisabeth was barren, and they both were now well stricken in years.
8 And it came to pass, that while he executed the priest's office before God in the order of his course,
9 According to the custom of the priest's office, his lot was to burn incense when he went into the temple of the Lord.
10 And the whole multitude of the people were praying without at the time of incense.
11 And there appeared unto him an angel of the Lord standing on the right side of the altar of incense.
12 And when Zacharias saw him, he was troubled, and fear fell upon him.
13 But the angel said unto him, Fear not, Zacharias: for thy prayer is heard; and thy wife Elisabeth shall bear thee a son, and thou shalt call his name John.
14 And thou shalt have joy and gladness; and many shall rejoice at his birth.
15 For he shall be great in the sight of the Lord, and shall drink neither wine nor strong drink; and he shall be filled with the Holy Ghost, even from his mother's womb. Notice how he is filled with the Holy Spirit in the verse where his mom gets to see her cousin Mary and John knows even in the womb that she is carrying our Savior!
16 And many of the children of Israel shall he turn to the Lord their God.
17 And he shall go before him in the spirit and power of Elias, to turn the hearts of the fathers to the children, and the disobedient to the wisdom of the just; to make ready a people prepared for the Lord.
18 And Zacharias said unto the angel, Whereby shall I know this? for I am an old man, and my wife well stricken in years.
19 And the angel answering said unto him, I am Gabriel, that stand in the presence of God; and am sent to speak unto thee, and to shew thee these glad tidings. He lacked faith…. I do this quite often myself!
20 And, behold, thou shalt be dumb, and not able to speak, until the day that these things shall be performed, because thou believest not my words, which shall be fulfilled in their season.
21 And the people waited for Zacharias, and marvelled that he tarried so long in the temple.
22 And when he came out, he could not speak unto them: and they perceived that he had seen a vision in the temple: for he beckoned unto them, and remained speechless.
23 And it came to pass, that, as soon as the days of his ministration were accomplished, he departed to his own house.
24 And after those days his wife Elisabeth conceived, and hid herself five months, saying,
25 Thus hath the Lord dealt with me in the days wherein he looked on me, to take away my reproach among men.
Back in those days, people actually believed that you had done something wrong or weren't holy enough to be blessed with a child. That's the reproach she is talking about.

Our Precious Savior's Existence is Spoken of …..
26 ¶ And in the sixth month the angel Gabriel was sent from God unto a city of Galilee, named Nazareth,
27 To a virgin espoused to a man whose name was Joseph, of the house of David; and the virgin's name was Mary.
28 And the angel came in unto her, and said, Hail, thou that art highly favoured, the Lord is with thee: blessed art thou among women.
29 And when she saw him, she was troubled at his saying, and cast in her mind what manner of salutation this should be.
30 And the angel said unto her, Fear not, Mary: for thou hast found favour with God.
31 And, behold, thou shalt conceive in thy womb, and bring forth a son, and shalt call his name JESUS.
32 He shall be great, and shall be called the Son of the Highest: and the Lord God shall give unto him the throne of his father David:
33 And he shall reign over the house of Jacob for ever; and of his kingdom there shall be no end.
34 Then said Mary unto the angel, How shall this be, seeing I know not a man?
35 And the angel answered and said unto her, The Holy Ghost shall come upon thee, and the power of the Highest shall overshadow thee: therefore also that holy thing which shall be born of thee shall be called the Son of God.
36 And, behold, thy cousin Elisabeth, she hath also conceived a son in her old age: and this is the sixth month with her, who was called barren.
37 For with God nothing shall be impossible. This is my favorite part…. Here Mary had conceived and never known a man… and Elizabeth had conceived when she never thought she would. Both good women of God who loved God and were holy in His sight and their faith was made whole!!!
38 And Mary said, Behold the handmaid of the Lord; be it unto me according to thy word. And the angel departed from her.
39 ¶ And Mary arose in those days, and went into the hill country with haste, into a city of Juda;
40 And entered into the house of Zacharias, and saluted Elisabeth.
41 And it came to pass, that, when ; and Elisabeth was filled with the Holy Ghost: Elisabeth heard the salutation of Mary, the babe leaped in her womb There's baby John the Baptist getting excited about Jesus!
42 And she spake out with a loud voice, and said, Blessed art thou among women, and blessed is the fruit of thy womb.
43 And whence is this to me, that the mother of my Lord should come to me? Beautiful!!! She was honoring Mary, a younger woman, and she was humble enough to do so!
44 For, lo, as soon as the voice of thy salutation sounded in mine ears, the babe leaped in my womb for joy.
45 And blessed is she that believed: for there shall be a performance of those things which were told her from the Lord.
46 And Mary said, My soul doth magnify the Lord,
47 And my spirit hath rejoiced in God my Saviour.
48 For he hath regarded the low estate of his handmaiden: for, behold, from henceforth all generations shall call me blessed.
49 For he that is mighty hath done to me great things; and holy is his name.
50 And his mercy is on them that fear him from generation to generation.
51 He hath shewed strength with his arm; he hath scattered the proud in the imagination of their hearts.
52 He hath put down the mighty from their seats, and exalted them of low degree.
53 He hath filled the hungry with good things; and the rich he hath sent empty away.
54 He hath holpen his servant Israel, in remembrance of his mercy;
55 As he spake to our fathers, to Abraham, and to his seed for ever.
56 And Mary abode with her about three months, and returned to her own house. Beautiful… Mary sings praises to God for His goodness and mercies!
57 ¶ Now Elisabeth's full time came that she should be delivered; and she brought forth a son.
58 And her neighbours and her cousins heard how the Lord had shewed great mercy upon her; and they rejoiced with her. Even after they had all assumed she had done something wrong before because she was barren! God showed them! Even though she had to wait for the child, look at who her child grew up into! John the Baptist!
59 And it came to pass, that on the eighth day they came to circumcise the child; and they called him Zacharias, after the name of his father.
60 And his mother answered and said, Not so; but he shall be called John.
61 And they said unto her, There is none of thy kindred that is called by this name.
62 And they made signs to his father, how he would have him called.
63 And he asked for a writing table, and wrote, saying, His name is John. And they marvelled all.
64 And his mouth was opened immediately, and his tongue loosed, and he spake, and praised God.
65 And fear came on all that dwelt round about them: and all these sayings were noised abroad throughout all the hill country of Judaea.
66 And all they that heard them laid them up in their hearts, saying, What manner of child shall this be! And the hand of the Lord was with him.
67 ¶ And his father Zacharias was filled with the Holy Ghost, and prophesied, saying,
68 Blessed be the Lord God of Israel; for he hath visited and redeemed his people,
69 And hath raised up an horn of salvation for us in the house of his servant David;
70 As he spake by the mouth of his holy prophets, which have been since the world began:
71 That we should be saved from our enemies, and from the hand of all that hate us;
72 To perform the mercy promised to our fathers, and to remember his holy covenant;
73 The oath which he sware to our father Abraham,
74 That he would grant unto us, that we being delivered out of the hand of our enemies might serve him without fear,
75 In holiness and righteousness before him, all the days of our life.
76 And thou, child, shalt be called the prophet of the Highest: for thou shalt go before the face of the Lord to prepare his ways;
77 To give knowledge of salvation unto his people by the remission of their sins,
78 Through the tender mercy of our God; whereby the dayspring from on high hath visited us,
79 To give light to them that sit in darkness and in the shadow of death, to guide our feet into the way of peace. He gave thanks to God for the blessed child they received!
80 And the child grew, and waxed strong in spirit, and was in the deserts till the day of his shewing unto Israel.
He grew to be a great man who did nothing but point to Jesus through his whole life!

Words From My Father Through 3 Willing Vessels

I am very appreciative of all my friends out there, especially my blog pals. I really feel blessed because there are so many folks that I can actually call a friend. In the past month, I have had three of those friends let me know what God has spoken or shown them regarding my soon to come pregnancy.

If you will remember back a few posts, I had the words of my blog friend Poddy. He is such a sweet person and he really encourages my husband and I. Here's his words again:

"With dark days to come with His children like you shining His light then many will come running to the Lord. I don't see a world wide revival. Can't see it in Gods Word. But when peoples Backs are against the wall, some will cry out to him. And the light of YESHUA will shine waiting to help them to know the father. I'M GOING TO SAY THIS TO YOU MAY GOD BLESS YOUR WOMB AND CHILD WILL SHINE FOR JESUS AND HE WILL BE A BLESSING TO YOU BOTH AND YOUR FAMILY. Please if i'm wrong then forgive me and I will go before the Lord. But I will believe that God as made it known to me to tell you. YOU Won't need to tell me when it comes about, I will hear you here across the pond. blessing to you and hubby. " --- PODDY

On Monday, I was watching my students at breakfast when my friend Steph came in. She, too, has been through infertility and we can really relate to each other emotionally. Steph has been fasting and Praying for me and my friend Deanna for the past few months. She loves sweet tea but she has traded it in to Pray for us! Very sweet! So, she came into the lunchroom Monday and could not wait to talk to me. She told me that she had had a dream last Wednesday that I had came into the conference room and told her that I just peed on a stick and was pregnant. She said that we were both so excited and that we were trying to figure out when the baby would be born, my birthday or hers (both in August which is 9 months from November). She also told me that every time she Prays for me and Deanna she feels soo overwhelmed and burdened for us, but that the last few times that she has Prayed for us, she has not felt burdened at all! What a blessing! How encouraging!

Lastly, my third friend who I have mentioned before on here, Shelly, was overwhelmed with a testimony to tell me on Tuesday. Shelly and Brandon (my old boss from SECC UB) are such wonderful people and they were in the same boat that Michael and I are in now for many years. So, Shelly got ahold of me on Tuesday via Myspace email and said this:

"I just wanted to let you know that I was on my way home from work this evening & I was just praying and thanking God for Emma. Since I've gone back to work, I appreciate her so much more! I started to pray for all the little babies that don't have a mommy or daddy to hold them. I was asking God to give them comfort & to place them with parents who would love and care for them because I know that as much pain that we had when we were trying to conceive, I know that those little babies are yearning for parents just like we wanted a child. I then started to pray for you and your husband that you guys would have comfort and continue to put your trust and faith in God. Just as plain as day, at 5:49, I heard, "tell them to not pray for just any child, but to pray for the child that I am forming just for them!" I didn't have anything to write on, but a pizza box that had our dinner in it LOL, but I stopped on the mountain and wrote that down so I could remember to tell you, not that I would forget :-) I hope that you guys are doing okay! I just wanted to let you know that we will continue to pray for you guys!" -- Shelly

This really touched my heart. The third testimony of God's grace and His soon to come miracles! The fact that it is three also excites me because God speaks in three's all throughout the Bible. My best friend Danielle's mother Verna was given three different testimonies about Danielle's death when she died. Verna talked about this all the time in relation to this verse:

2 Corinthians 13:1 (Whole Chapter)
This is the third time I am coming to you. In the mouth of two or three witnesses shall every word be established.

How awesome that I have heard it in three's! God is soo good!

Ps. Continue to Pray for Deanna and I as we find out our progesterone levels (we both had them checked today) and our pregnancy results. I Pray that if it is God's will, we will be blessed to go through this journey together since we've went through infertility's journey together. Love to each of you!

God is still Faithful!

Psalm 46 (King James Version)

1God is our refuge and strength, a very present help in trouble.

2Therefore will not we fear, though the earth be removed, and though the mountains be carried into the midst of the sea;

3Though the waters thereof roar and be troubled, though the mountains shake with the swelling thereof. Selah.

4There is a river, the streams whereof shall make glad the city of God, the holy place of the tabernacles of the most High.

5God is in the midst of her; she shall not be moved: God shall help her, and that right early.

6The heathen raged, the kingdoms were moved: he uttered his voice, the earth melted.

7The LORD of hosts is with us; the God of Jacob is our refuge. Selah.

8Come, behold the works of the LORD, what desolations he hath made in the earth.

9He maketh wars to cease unto the end of the earth; he breaketh the bow, and cutteth the spear in sunder; he burneth the chariot in the fire.

10Be still, and know that I am God: I will be exalted among the heathen, I will be exalted in the earth.

11The LORD of hosts is with us; the God of Jacob is our refuge. Selah.

Hi guys,

I am still a little bit out of it but I wanted to share what I do know with you all. Yesterday's surgery went well. I didn't even have issues with the gasses that they pump into you like I did last time! The doctor made 2 discoveries that were out of the ordinary.

1: I have a Unicornuate Uterus. This means that my uterus is smaller than most and that it is only attached to my right fallopian tube. The doctor said that I would still be able to get pregnant on my own but that it would take longer and that I would have to have a C-section about a month early because the baby would run out of room.

2: The doctor found a vessel that is suppose to be under my ureter and it wasn't. This led her to think that I may have only one kidney. I have to get this looked into also.

I am scared but God is good. I've been reading stories online about the Unicornuate Uterus and I am so Praying that God will still bless me with a child. Since I only have 1 tube connecting to my uterus, that means I can only get pregnant when that tube sends out the egg. And... I still have my PCOS.

God knew what He was doing 27 years ago. He created me this way for a reason. Though it seems strange to me because there's only like a 1 in 4,000 chance of having this, He has a plan. It does scare me to think of waiting a lifetime to have a child. The chances of miscarriage according to the net are like 38%. But He knew what He was doing then and He knows what He's doing now. I praise Him for this!

Prayer needs:

1. Pray that I heal quickly and am back to myself soon.
2. Pray blessings for those at the hospital who were so kind to me yesterday.
3. Pray blessings upon my precious family who were so good to me yesterday and always.
4. Pray that despite all these issues, God would be preparing my precious child even now to make it's entrance into my life.
5. Pray that we can find out all about my kidney when I'm up to it.


Thanks and love to all!

Ps. My doctor is suppose to give me a call and let me know the ins and outs of all this. I'll update when I find out.

Hop On Over For Another Psalm

You can click here to hop on over to my personal blog, Shine 4 Jesus!, and read another Psalm that I absolutely love. It is just amazing to me and it reminds me a lot of my cries to God about my problems (including infertility!)

A Couple of Psalms Just For Me....

Just wanted to share a couple of Psalms with you tonight. I'm still having a hard time but it is somewhat better. Tonight I just broke down on my mom and told her the cold, hard truth that I really feel and some of it is even stuff I can't type on here. There are just some things you can barely say aloud let alone type for everyone to read. But, I did feel better after I admitted some of the things that I had been feeling and after I stopped feeling guilty about them.

I still Pray that my chance at being a mother will come soon and that I will be blessed to have a child of my own. Please join me in Pray about this situation. For those of you who left a comment or texted/called during my time in this valley, may God bless you for your thoughtfulness. You never know just how much it means to someone for just a kind word, a card, a quick note, etc. I think some of my infertility issues are enhanced by the loss of my best friend Danielle who was such a source of encouragement to me. So thank you for reminding me that others do still care.

Psalm 5-6 (King James Version)

Psalm 5

1Give ear to my words, O LORD, consider my meditation.

2Hearken unto the voice of my cry, my King, and my God: for unto thee will I pray.

3My voice shalt thou hear in the morning, O LORD; in the morning will I direct my prayer unto thee, and will look up.

4For thou art not a God that hath pleasure in wickedness: neither shall evil dwell with thee.

5The foolish shall not stand in thy sight: thou hatest all workers of iniquity.

6Thou shalt destroy them that speak leasing: the LORD will abhor the bloody and deceitful man.

7But as for me, I will come into thy house in the multitude of thy mercy: and in thy fear will I worship toward thy holy temple.

8Lead me, O LORD, in thy righteousness because of mine enemies; make thy way straight before my face.

9For there is no faithfulness in their mouth; their inward part is very wickedness; their throat is an open sepulchre; they flatter with their tongue.

10Destroy thou them, O God; let them fall by their own counsels; cast them out in the multitude of their transgressions; for they have rebelled against thee.

11But let all those that put their trust in thee rejoice: let them ever shout for joy, because thou defendest them: let them also that love thy name be joyful in thee.

12For thou, LORD, wilt bless the righteous; with favour wilt thou compass him as with a shield.

(PSALM 5 WAS A BIG HELP TO ME WHEN MY MOM WAS IN LEXINGTON FOR HER LAST HEART CATH!)

Psalm 6

1O LORD, rebuke me not in thine anger, neither chasten me in thy hot displeasure.

2Have mercy upon me, O LORD; for I am weak: O LORD, heal me; for my bones are vexed.

3My soul is also sore vexed: but thou, O LORD, how long?

4Return, O LORD, deliver my soul: oh save me for thy mercies' sake.

5For in death there is no remembrance of thee: in the grave who shall give thee thanks?

6I am weary with my groaning; all the night make I my bed to swim; I water my couch with my tears.

7Mine eye is consumed because of grief; it waxeth old because of all mine enemies.

8Depart from me, all ye workers of iniquity; for the LORD hath heard the voice of my weeping.

9The LORD hath heard my supplication; the LORD will receive my prayer.

10Let all mine enemies be ashamed and sore vexed: let them return and be ashamed suddenly.

Psalm 113:9

Psalm 113:9 (King James Version)

9He maketh the barren woman to keep house, and to be a joyful mother of children. Praise ye the LORD.

I claim this promise from God. I can't wait to be a joyful mother of children. 5 days until the progesterone test!