Sunday, April 5, 2009

Empty Arms, Broken Hearts Video

Isaiah 30:18 (King James Version)

18And therefore will the LORD wait, that he may be gracious unto you, and therefore will he be exalted, that he may have mercy upon you: for the LORD is a God of judgment: blessed are all they that wait for him.

I have had a really hard time today. I have felt soo horrible with some major sinus problems. I slept for 4 hours this evening and then started my period. I still feel pretty yucky and it's almost 12am. I am stressed because I have been thinking about how I am going to have to figure out work around traveling to Knoxville again. The thought just wears me out. I wish that I was "one of those folks" who could just do it and not worry but that's just not me. I feel like I am spread so thin and I can't seem to do it all appropriately. Please just Pray for me as I try to figure all this out. I am going to see if my ultrasound for cysts can be done locally but if it is going to be too much of a headache, I'm just going to head back to Knoxville.

I came across this video tonight and felt it appropriately described how I am feeling. I hope this helps some of you who are hurting as well and I hope this helps those of you who have never went through infertility. It sort of helps explain what we are all going through in a very calm way. The part that really describes me currently is the part where it talks about "sending regrets" for not attending baby functions: holiday stuff, baby showers, bday parties, etc.

Much love and Prayers to all of you!

8 Remarks:


We're in the same mood I guess! Thanks for your comment on my blog. I hope you feel better soon too. It's just so HARD!! Just getting through one day at a time is my goal.


I believe that we will get to be mommies someday. I don;t know when but I think that we will. The Lord is in control and we are serving one who can do anything!!!


I'm very, very sorry you've been having a hard time lately. I know the waiting is SO difficult. :(

Praying for you.

Jim and April

is the video suppose to be on your blog because i cant see it?


It's a really good video, thanks for sharing it :)Praying for you sister.

Jesus, My Best Friend

april ... click where it says this video and it is linked.

beth ewing

hey i left you something on my blog. check it out!


I am so hoping that your wait will not be too much longer, the waiting is so unbearable sometimes. For that I'm so sorry and I'm keeping you in my thoughts and prayers ((hugs))